THE DREAM - is NOT easy

Sometimes your dream has to take you miles away! Being away from my family has been maybe the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Besides being a unicorn, in cancerian (for those who enjoy dabbling in astrology) for our more conservative folk it means I’m a home body. 

The first 3 months of being here (in Massachusetts, USA) I cried nearly if not every night, I would call my parents and constantly be speaking to someone back home. Honestly thought I was about to cave in before my 3rd month! Missing my mothers food, missing my dads animated conversations, chatting to my eldest sister or annoying the life out of the youngest. Having a chance to visit my grandmother knowing I would score some rooibos tea (with milk because this is how the old girl [our nickname for ma] likes it), scrambled eggs and of course I had to go get a half a loaf of bread (because someone probably ate it). Your tuck shop run got you R5 which went to 2 packs tomato crack-a-snack, 2 BBQ and 1 cheese. Now wishing I had done this more often. 

Missing Sunday’s because who does not like a day filled with the best food (my mother is by far the BEST cook and baker that ever walked this rock. Hands down!) then arguing who has to wash up and dry off, family coming over and just being around people who love you and whi you love. Being so close to the beach and allowing those waves to wash over your being, or hearing the waves crash into the rocks. (May seem simple but ‘it’s the smallest things which leave the biggest holes’).

Having missed a birth, a wedding and a few deaths (thankfully none of my blood), missing all these events makes one realize how precious family and experiences are. 

This dream was so big it scared me-it honestly still does and this is what fuels me. It’s is not always easy, in the past month I have called my father twice saying I wanted to come home. To just walk into my home and curl up in my fathers lap. Knowing what I am working towards and WHY is what keeps me going, Keeps me pushing on.

the dream is beautiful - everything you thought it to be and so much more- the process however is hard due to the fact that it molds  you into the person you need to be in order to experience your dream for everything it’s meant to be! Along the way you may question your dream but then you get a glimpse of it and that motivates you so much more. 

“Trust the process” is by far the most annyoing phrase but there’s so much truth. Allow the process to add and take away whatever it needs to in order for you to experience your dream for everything it’s meant to be!